girl

there was this girl
supersmart
in computer science
and attractive
she had the boyish outlook

she had some break outs on her face but nonetheless attractive very attractive (Erin I remember her name)

and she sensed that I was attracted to her

she was looking at me in a certain way

i could sense that

but nothing beyond that

that was her way of saying "nice of you to feel attracted to me"

and she sensed the dread i was in as she had a little smile

I would never think of coming on to her

that was never the thought

the thought and feeling was that of an attraction

I now realize I would never been able to keep up with her

I would never been able to keep up a relationship

she must work at Google Tech now I assume or somewhere

[I'm almost embarassed writing this but what the heck it's all in the open]